Due to the status that Dr Ibrani put in his FacebOok abOut me make me wonder ......
Am I really do have personality crisis
Or
Am I really do suffering from "kecelaruan emosi"
wonder why it make me think........and talk to myself. Do I really that "person"?
Surely, honestly....... I found myself difficult to express my emotion. And sometimes it become so unpredictable and its kinda goes uP and dOwn and it make me sick to feel that way. friends said, I have "mood swing". I dont care. Its true and I know it. I also know that, I'm very patient, I'm easy going, I'm easy to forgive someone (but I dont say it to them..its for them to know and leave me alone and stop messing with my life)....and so on
but the question is,.... do the person that I portrays it the real "janie" or the "fake" janie?
I tend to put others first and not myself. Always think bout everyone else without puting myself as the main "thing". I help others without helping my self. And at the end of the day, I'm the one that cried alone deep in the corner of my heart. Not that I dOnt wanna change...but it seems to synonym with me and it hard to let things go. So yes! it fair to say that I dont show my true emotion. and I guess that what make me have some problems with my "JIWA".
The smile, jokes, laughter that I made almost all was fake. It seems too easy for me to fake it. rather then to let it go naturally. I hold back my true self and put a BIG HUGE block for people to predict me and to Understand me. Yeay I've made a mistake. HUGE mistake I guess. But I'm about to change.
If people said I have a mental problems, I guess I do. If people said I have psychology mental disoder ok its fine with me. I admit it and take it as a challange to change. But do help me coz I'm lost and stuck with my own world with full of fake. But what I can say is this post is the real me.
Am I really do have personality crisis
Or
Am I really do suffering from "kecelaruan emosi"
wonder why it make me think........and talk to myself. Do I really that "person"?
Surely, honestly....... I found myself difficult to express my emotion. And sometimes it become so unpredictable and its kinda goes uP and dOwn and it make me sick to feel that way. friends said, I have "mood swing". I dont care. Its true and I know it. I also know that, I'm very patient, I'm easy going, I'm easy to forgive someone (but I dont say it to them..its for them to know and leave me alone and stop messing with my life)....and so on
but the question is,.... do the person that I portrays it the real "janie" or the "fake" janie?
I tend to put others first and not myself. Always think bout everyone else without puting myself as the main "thing". I help others without helping my self. And at the end of the day, I'm the one that cried alone deep in the corner of my heart. Not that I dOnt wanna change...but it seems to synonym with me and it hard to let things go. So yes! it fair to say that I dont show my true emotion. and I guess that what make me have some problems with my "JIWA".
The smile, jokes, laughter that I made almost all was fake. It seems too easy for me to fake it. rather then to let it go naturally. I hold back my true self and put a BIG HUGE block for people to predict me and to Understand me. Yeay I've made a mistake. HUGE mistake I guess. But I'm about to change.
If people said I have a mental problems, I guess I do. If people said I have psychology mental disoder ok its fine with me. I admit it and take it as a challange to change. But do help me coz I'm lost and stuck with my own world with full of fake. But what I can say is this post is the real me.
" I'm not crazy I'm just a Lilttle Unwell, I know right now I can't tell..so stay awhile and maybe yOu can see...the diffrent side of me." -Matchbox 20.
I guess yOu guys know why I love that song so much right.
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